video meditation called the pink sand medicaine wheel.And well i found myself more or less watching the video then meditating.And got really mad at myself for that but i also tried the 3minute breather and that went very well.The 3 min is a very relaxing and great energy recharge from my expierince with it this time then that could be because ive been burning the candle at both ends as of late and havent taken any me time.But along with a sensation of warmth and total recharge it ws a very good experiance to say the least even tho it wasnt what i was expecting but then we only get what we need not what we want.
6/4/04:Well i got another day to myself and tried to do some more meditation this time on my own with what i have been taught in the past few years.And well i had the strangest experience with it.It started out like any other meditation.I inhaled the light and exhaled the egitives that where bothering me till I was totaly relaxed
then I started my backwards regresion letting go of all those things in my life that I saw as negetives and things that needed to be solved and finalized.I went from today to my youth.And finaly started to concentrate and what was before that.When i heard,and felt something hit me on the back of my head and then i felt myself falling.That for lack of better words scared the shit out of me and brought me out of my state.Now im trying to figure out what i did wrong if anything our was this just something i wasnt redy to accepet?